Though it is true we can’t dictate what other people come at us with, we can choose what we click on. News often times is fueled with fear, sensationalism; an “us versus them” consciousness, so what do you do to counteract that flow of negativity? Do you choose to dance it out, listening to music that makes you wanna dance? Do you check the feed of your favorite video animal blogger? Silly memes? Read passages of famous love letters? Search hashtags of dream vacation locations?

It simply does not matter where you find hope and joy, the trick is just to actively pursue it!  You are responsible for your happiness, so when the world seems to darken and terror is dripping from every headline, revert your eyes back to all the beauty and humanity that is all around you.  Everyone loves to repost Mr. Roger’s quote, but it only works if you choose to do the work and find the helpers, find the people with compassion, find the brave ones, find the resilient ones, find the peacemakers, and remind yourself this world is beautiful and hope is always there waiting to be found.

There is that dreaded word…CHANGE!

In our lives I feel we aren’t given a healthy way to embrace change, often times we are taught to focus on the loss that can accompany moving forward, but that in its self is limiting, and not the full scope of the story.

As an adult I have decided not to limit myself to the world I have carved out in the past 35 years.  I choose to continue down life’s endless road and commit to expanding my knowledge, my loves and ultimately myself.  I understand that this will take great strength and vulnerability.  The best things in life can often times come from being forced out of our comfort zone!

So I have created this blog as a safe spot to share, expand and celebrate our adventures and speed bumps.  A place to gain a vantage point in our lives to better understand ourselves and attain that ultimate victory of happiness and contentment in the now.

“The decision to be positive is not one that disregards or belittles sadness that exists. It is rather a conscious choice to focus on the good and to cultivate happiness, genuine happiness. Happiness is not a limited resource. When we devote our energy and time to trivial matters and choose to stress over things that ultimately are insignificant, from that point, we perpetuate our own sadness and lose sight of the things that really make us happy and rationalize our way out of doing amazing things.”  Christopher Aiff 

Earlier today I was out watering the front lawn, a seemingly “ordinary and unfulfilling job”.  It is this assumption that I perpetuate in my head that lead me to minimize my life and what I am doing in it.  I essentially felt like a failure, with no resume of greatness to buoyant my head high.

“What am I doing in this life? Why aren’t I doing more?”

On top of all of this I am jobless, granted I am a stay at home mother (which is a dream I never knew I could truly have), but it does not pay in US currency, so it is quite easy to feel like a freeloader with no pretty paycheck to validate my work.

Alas, what would I like to do with this life of mine?  What goals would I like to have checked off?

Honesty I don’t want much.  I don’t have the aching need to be famous (I love my freedom and privacy too much).  I don’t want to run a company, nor have overhead or employees.  I don’t want to race nor compete. I don’t wish to rally or occupy, boycott or petition.

ALL I  WANT  IS  TO  BRING  HAPPINESS  AND  KINDNESS  INTO  PEOPLE’S  LIVES!

That’s it!

If it’s on a global scale or family compass, I’m okay with that……But then again perhaps that is only what my heart would say, for my head and soul are little more greedy and ambitious.

They would love to infect by the millions (insert diabolical laughter here)!

But today after watching Zach Sobiech on My Last Days, I think I can start to work on just letting me be happy with that simple ambition for once.  And then perhaps continue to feed and nourish  myself into feeling at peace with my little life’s ambition, so that one day I’ll see it’s grown and tower over me with beaming lights, dancing and blinking and humming to a magnificent life lived honorably and well.